I kept on writing and then deleting, either to tell you guys the background or not.. yes, no, yes,no.. i guess yes.. i think no. okay no. I aint telling you what happened , but yes, last night, again, it was me and my wet pillow.. I have been lying too these days, little lies, but whatsoever, a lie is a lie. Life has been, weird. I thought it had changed a little, and God sent a few loving angels for me (: but if I have angels around, I can not overlook the fact that Im surrounded in humans. Those, which cant see me happy.

Fine then, I tried a lot to make you happy. But if your happiness lies in seeing me sad, i am okay with that.

But you, if you ever read this.. I love them. They have been the smile on my face when it was you who made me cry. You want me to run away from them? You want me to ‘experience’ and ‘face’ loneliness? Cool, as if I hadn’t ever done that..but yeah, if that makes you content, I guess I’ll do it.

Couldn’t come up with anything else, not in a mood to say everything inside, coz probably that would be something that again, would not make you happy. -.- So I’ll just post this poem, wese bhi haven’t posted a poem since ages, so yeah, here it goes..